my bicoastal disorder

i never thought i'd entoil myself in a long distance relationship... but i'm in one. a serious one. it's really ironic how we started dating AFTER i moved to new york. we met a few months before i moved and we didn't go exclusive until a month after i moved. well, considering my move to nyc happened so unexpectedly it was really by chance that we started dating. we reconnected at my going away party! i had met him only once before that.

maybe my bicoastal disorder is fueled even more by the fact that i miss my boyfriend so much. that i long to be with him every moment... although, even if we lived and worked in the same town, we wouldn't be able to see each other during the day because of work! but i do miss san francisco and surrounding areas, my friends and family... and my boyfriend, of course.

he's coming out this weekend so i'm looking forward to doing our usual new york city stuff... we have a broadway show planned, a nice restaurant and probably a run around central park. but i wonder how long am i really going to be here. we have discussed me moving back or him moving out to new york. but i'm not quite ready to move back... although, at times, i feel like i've had enough of the big apple and ready to back to the foggy city!

i'm so torn...